Doubt

Doubt, they say, 's the greatest sin

It seems, it fills me to the brim

But I'm sure, I've no fear

And not a drop of sorry tear

At times I wish to cry with some

`Oh, God ! My God ! If there is God

Save my soul, if I have a soul!'

The next moment I hold my peace

I softly tell my stricken soul,

`My life mate, my dear brave soul !

Why such a fuss you make ?

Why despond ? why despair ?

Why have you forgotten yourself ?

To such a pass why have you come to ?

You were touched my God in your childhood !

You doubt it ? Ah, then,

Can you doubt

You touched God in your childhood ?

You cried for God,

And have you not had something ?

Have you not a great love for Mother ?

Haven't you understood Mother is your own ?

You desire to play `Let's pretend'?

So be it. Be all these false.

Let an accident there be,

That cause you to forget all !

But still, you have yourself !

I know you, I love you.

I love you with such a love

That none except perhaps God

Is capable of.

You strong heart, why despair ?

You have God !

You can do without air

But you can't, without God.

If you are piqued at God

There are people

Have adventure meeting people

Then there is Death, Spirit

and the Transcendent

Your heart is in all these, keep on,

Do all, do all,

Truth may be, must be, somewhere.

Nothing, No effort is wasted

Though, silly, you know,

You instinctively, are aware,

Truth is in everything.

Though you pretend, you play

A game of not knowing

Come on, awake, arise

Be up and doing

My dear brave soul.

First two paras on 22.7.85

T.C. Ist year

Kept the remaining as rough draft

until 26.5.1987 T.C. 2nd year

when the same was taken as the

complete form after a few

modifications.